last october, I sat, wrapped in a quilt, watching general conference with my family. up until that point i had been silently thinking about serving a mission but was very hesitant and unsure. i was completely terrified of the thought, but also wanted to do god's will. so, i decided to keep this question in my heart throughout conference, "should i serve a mission?" i did not expect to have my answer come so quickly and directly, but to my surprise, it came to me, clear as day. if you watched conference last fall you might remember the choir seats full of MTC missionaries. well, they were my answer. i will never forget the strong feeling that came over me as they began to sing. a fire filled my heart and overcame my entire body. it was the most straight forward prompting i have ever felt in my life. being human, i brushed it off thinking that couldn't possibly be my answer. but the next thing i knew the choir stood to sing a second time and the exact feeling entered my heart again. this time, stronger. i was overwhelmed with emotion but still very unsure. then, the choir stood again, and a third time, the fire returned! i knew i could no longer deny what i was feeling. when conference ended, i went to my room and sat on my bed buried in the scriptures. i read from luke:22 and came upon verse 42 which reads...
"Saying Father, if thou be willing remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will but thine, be done."
once again a prompting came, this time stronger than ever. i realized that it would be wrong for me to deny what i had felt when the answer had been shown to me so clearly. i thought of my savior in gethsemane, suffering for my sins. he died for me and for all of us, he gave up everything. the least i can do is sacrifice 18 months of my life to serve him. more than anything, i knew that the lord needed me. i decided to put my faith in him and put my life in his hands. i began to cry, and then quietly said aloud, " i will go." at the moment that i made my decision to serve, an incredible peace came over me and my desire to serve grew.
i know that a mission is exactly what i need to be doing and i know that there is a reason i have been called to labor in the colorado, colorado springs mission. i have the strongest testimony of the gospel and i know that as we put our faith in christ and trust in god's plan we will find more joy than we ever could have imagined. remember, he knows each of his children perfectly.
p.s. these amazing photos were taken by beautiful friend Jenny Flynn! Go check out her work here!